Avoiding the trite semi-excuses of loving my family and friends, absolutely no one. 

It's not as heartless as it seems. I want love. I yearn for it. Even unrequited love. I want to feel attraction and passion and love, but I truly can't. 

I've never had a crush beyond vaguely liking some guy in my class at school. I've never even been sexually attracted to someone in real life (although I've fancied my share of characters from TV shows).

The way I see it, crushes soften the heart so that real love can worm its way inside. So without crushes - how can I fall in love?

I'm not depressed about it. I'm still young, there's plenty of time. Sometimes its harder than others to watch friends and colleagues talking about relationships and sex, but mostly it's like watching from the outside without ever being a part of events. Most of the time I like my own space and company. 

In a few years time I'm sure things will be different. Until then I've got time to make my life the way I want it. I just have to hope that when the times comes I'm not as totally hardened to the concept as I am now.